Ah, back to school... Twas bound to happen. I didn't expect my precious time to go by so quickly. It's been an adjustment... Fortunately, I've been able to see some positives along with the negatives.
Negatives
- I feel completely out of practice. It was like I had just started teaching. I guess when it comes to teaching, the phrase, "You don't use it, you lose it." rings true.
- The kids were totally out of control! I don't know what happened, but the long term sub must have let them get away with murder! Only now, a week and a half later, have they come even close to their behavior before I left. I had to drop the hammer. Hard.
- I don't know what happened, but I think my kids grew into puberty overnight. What's with the attitude?
- I'm SUPER tired and totally zapped of energy. I not only have to deal with hormone-driven pre-teens all day, I go home and take care of John during his 'unhappy time' (5-8pm). That, and I have to find the time before, during, and after school to pump. This means more planning and less sleep. I thank T for two reasons: one, he reduced his hours to part time so he can stay home with Baby J during the day (aka: no babysitter), two, he's taken over the 2 AM feeding so I can get some sleep at night!
- I miss my baby! I crave seeing, holding, and loving him all day long. He consumes my thoughts...
Positives
- The kids were happy to see me; it's nice to feel wanted.
- It is nice to get out of the house at times. I feel like I actually have a life outside of being Baby J's mom.
- Since I am gone a lot during the day, I certainly appreciate my baby and the time I have with him. I'm starting to see why my mom wants to come be with him all the time.
- I don't know why, but I have this renewed sense of devotion to my class, and not a minute too soon. AIMS is in less than 6 weeks. We've got a lot of work to do, and there's a lot riding on the results...
- With the new baby came a more scrutinized look at our income/budget. So when there's an opportunity for something free, you jump on it. Case in point: field trip to the zoo!
This week, the whole school went to the zoo. I love free things, and invited T + baby to come as 'chaperones'. Hence, baby's first trip to the zoo emerged.
It was fun to see all the kids so excited to see the animals. We were so lucky. On the day we went, the animals were the liveliest I've ever seen.
T watched those kids like a hawk...
and Baby J could barely contain his excitement...
3 comments:
That must be SO hard for you to work and have a family- I honestly don't know how you do it. I very much admire those who can. Go you!
It's always hard to adjust back to normal when something new happens! It looks like T and Baby J loved the zoo at least :)
I don't even hardly work and the couple hours a week that I devote to my barely part time of a job I feel so torn! I totally feel for you. But I guess you gotta do what you gotta do! Hope you get more sleep soon!
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